I am a lonely person. I’m an introvert. I also have pantophobia. Which is the perfect concoction of descriptions to set me up for modern society failure as I work best, alone.

I don’t like to connect regularly. I don’t like to be in huge crowds. But I also value my family and friends that I do have that chose to stay in my life and check in on me.

I’m guilty. Selfish. As I admittedly do not check in as often as I should on anyone. The only ones I do want to communicate with all the time are the ones I love the most. It’s a sad story I’m writing in my life as I’ve lost almost everyone and only the true few stick around.

The ones that are selfless? The ones that do care? The ones I grew up with?

They are not obligated to do anything with me or communicate with me or check up on me but it must mean they genuinely care right?

It really doesn’t matter? Humans are almost programmed to be social beings. But as societies has grown and learned, we’re being “reprogrammed” to work as individuals. You don’t need to socialize or even count on another human to survive anymore.

Gosh, where has this blog post gone?

Until next time my cubs~